I have to admit I am getting worryingly obsessed with this blogging mullarky. Every waking moment I seem to be thinking about things I can post or include on my blog. When you are a narcissistic as I appear to have become, its easy to think that readers will be interested in anything I post, however mundane. The other day I posted a highly detailed account of a quite disturbing dream Id had. When I looked at it onn my blog, I thought what a lot of absolute nonsense to inflict on the net! So I very quickly deleted it! I’m sure this obsession will quieten at some time. Right now a day without Blogging is like a day without chocolate . Both make me feel instantly happier! But I guess only one is fattening!
I have tried to rationalise why I get pleasure and comfort from putting my life up on the internet. It certainly does have a liberating feel. A colleague at work said I seemed to come more alive on line. In real life I obviously find it hard to articulate my feelings. That is not a good quality. What is it about me that I have never told my brother that I love him, but I can sit on my own and tap it out to be read by all and sundry. I aim to be fully honest and so far have divulged events that may undermine the carefully crafted face I show to the world.
I have had some great feedback since I started. I hope it gives a glimpse into what it is like to be Transgendered. Although the world is now much more accepting of people like me, I still believe there is still very little real understanding. I include myself in this as I still can’t fully understand why my mind doesn’t match my genetic body.
Rejected ideas for this blog so far
+ A comprehensive list of all my shoes
+ An indepth analysis of the lyrics of Buck Fizz
+ My recipe ideas – basically lots of different sandwiches
+ My fiscal strategy for the nation –including Tax relief for Trans people who need 2 seperate wardrobes
+ Fun with Physics!
+ Exercise the Jenny way – You too can have a body like mine